My prayer and devotion time has been far from perfect. There are days where I do pray and study the word first and there are days where I pick up my phone and scroll away before I do any form of devotion and if you are in the second category where after such your day doesn’t go as well as you think it should have and feel God has punished you for not doing the right thing.
I have realized God doesn’t love me because I tick all of the right boxes, He doesn’t love me because say I all the right things all the time. God is love, that’s who He is, love is His nature. So it isn’t about how high or how low I jump, He loved me first.
God isn’t irritated by my struggles, He doesn’t leave me to myself till when I get it right. He never leaves me. When I struggle, I pick myself back up because He is my biggest supporter and friend, He cheers me back on to my feet. So my struggle doesn’t define me, I am who God says I am.
I tell a friend. I would say we were made for community, we can’t do life by ourselves and it can be irritating having to tell someone how you struggle all the time, but trust me, just speaking to someone and knowing that they care and are listening helps.
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